Twinkle and me...

Cream Cheese Bread Pudding...

2011-10-11T12:50:00.015+08:00

Last Sunday I made Cream Cheese Bread Pudding. As our bread is approaching to expiry date, I better do something edible before it end up in the dustbin yet again...

Twinkle is a willing assitant. She is breaking 250gm of cream cheese block with fork since it is still hard.

Now, posing with peace sign.

She still looks funny with two front teeth missing....

I add up blackberry jam for variation...

This is the end product after 30minutes in the oven. Notice that the cream cheese cracked. Oh well... it is a pudding.. so perfection is not expected for a pudding... right? Maybe I should bake it at 150'C instead of 160'C and use double-boil method to prevent cracking...

Ah.... My happy aassistant, indulging with the smell and sight...

Suprisingly, I manage to get the bread pudding out from the 8" round pan. My initially response was to scoop it out from the pan. That is normally we do to a bread pudding.

Well, the cheese part of the pudding is gorgeous and delicious by itself. When you put the whole combination of bread and cheese.... it tastes good. However, the bread part tastes plain by itself. Hmm.... If I am going to do it differently, I will spread Nuttella in between of the bread for chocolate taste or fruit jam for another variation. Next time maybe...

Here is the recipe..

Cream Cheese Bread Pudding

10 slices of bread ( I used 7 slices)

2 cups of fresh milk

1/2 cup of brown sugar ( I used caster sugar)

250 gm Cream Cheese

1 egg

1 tsp vanilla essence

raisin for decoration ( I used Blackberry Jam)

Instructions:

1. Arranged sliced bread inside baking pan. In my case, I used 8" round baking pan

2. Pour fresh milk and let it soak for 15 minutes.

3. Next, beat cream cheese and sugar until fluffy. Add egg and vanilla essence. Then mix it together.

4. Pour on top of the bread.

5. Put raisin on top and bake for 30 to 40 minutes at 160'C.

My housing loan is aprroved...

2011-10-05T08:00:00.007+08:00

My housing loan is finally approved. The bank officer sms me on 29th September 2011 to sign a few supplement documents. I was so relieved that finally I can own my own house.

Though, I am still waiting for some document from my lawyer since I need it to withdraw my retirement fund for down payment.

Now, I have to adjust my budget. RM1,200.00 per month is such a large amount to pay! My Burberry have to wait then... **sigh**

Cheese Caramel Pudding

2011-10-03T10:35:00.009+08:00

I believe this is one of the delicious pudding I ever had. It is very easy to make. I use the recipe from here.

I know, the pudding is not really in the centre... I don't want to nudge the pudding to the center for being at risk of breaking it!

The texture is very soft and smooth.... **drools** If only I have a bad ass camera with zoom property. I only manage to use macro function on my camera to capture all my photos..

Oh.... the caramel... sweet.... For those who are interested to try, here is the recipe:

Caramel Cheese Pudding

For Caramel

70 gm sugar ( or 5 1/2 tbsp )

2 tsp water

2 tbsp warm water

For Pudding

180gm cream cheese ( I use Philadelphia Cream Cheese)

70gm sugar

1 egg yolk

3 eggs

450 ml fresh milk

1 tbsp lemon juice ( I substitute with 1 tsp of lemon essense)

Methods:

1. To prepare caramel, I simply throw all ingredient into the 8" round baking pan and put it on medium heat on the stove. Just don't let the sugar cooked to be too dark or else it will taste bitter.

2. Swirl it around so that the bottom of the pan covered. Leave to cool.

3. In a bowl, mix sugar and cheese together and it is not necessarily fluffy. After that, add eggs one by one. Then add lemon juice (In my case, lemon essence)

4. Next, heat milk to near boil, then add into mixture from step 3. Whisk it quickly to avoid of having scramble egg in the mixture.

5. Pour the mixture into the caramel-covered baking tin. (I strained the mixture so that the texture of the pudding will be smooth).

6. Pe-heat the oven at 160'C for 10 minutes. Then bake the mixture using double boiler method for 45 minutes. Use upper and lower heat.

7. Leave to cool then flip the caramel into the serving plate.

I will definitely bake this pudding again! Good luck.

My Caramel Cake..

2011-09-26T10:42:00.009+08:00

This cake look fantastic!! It is courtesy from Masam Manis . After reading her post... I decided to give a try. Please be reminded, after seven attempts, she finally made it.... Want to see mine??

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HA HA HA..... Please do not be disgusted.... It tastes great!!! I am actually happy with the pattern!!! The caramel .. damn it was good!! The cake was moist... and damn soft!!

It is me to be blamed.... My mistakes were:

i. I did not put at the very bottom of the oven.

ii. I was impatience that I forced the cake to cool down (put in the iced-water) and... the caramel breaks when took the cake out.

I believe... this cake needs... PATIENCE... (sadly which I am lacking) and commitment!!

I will definitely bake this cake again. The step by step instructions from her ( Masam Manis) are very helpful!

To the author, Puan Azlita, thank you for the instructions. Jangan la gelak tengok kek saya ni yea. I will try more of your recipes and publish any attempts, whether it is a success or a failure. For this attempt, taste... PASSED.... Presentation... FAILED!!

Hope you don't mind that I used your photo as a reference...

To whom it may concern....

2011-09-22T14:23:00.002+08:00

She asked me to give it to you. Cute right? Hehehe

Lawyer fees....

2011-09-22T13:48:00.003+08:00

I paid partially my lawyer fees. Initially, it was costing me RM10,000.00. But today, I went to the lawyer and further discussed on the fees. Fortunately, there was some reduction on stamping fees since I am first home owner. It came to RM 8,200.00.

I told her honestly that I can pay Rm 5,000.00 today but the remaining of the fees might have to wait. Being considerate to me, she agreed that I will pay the remaining RM 3,200 later.

Before this, I was so naive thinking that I might need house deposit and I will get the house... (Of course I need my house loan to be approved). But, with all legal fees... the cost really add up!

Oh well, I am confident to get through this. As long as I get my own house, everything will be fine.

My monthly payment is basically Rm 1,203.00. With my current salary (on top of my car loan, my ASB laon, insurance, study loan etc.), I still can afford to pay my housing loan. HOWEVER, I definitely need some time to adjust my budget. It just that I am so lucky to be staying in a small town as the expenses here is not that demanding compared to big city.

My advise to all first home buyer, do not be suprised with all the fees.

Twinkle and her new dress....

2011-09-21T12:41:00.003+08:00

I bought her a new dress during my previous visit to Sibu. It cost me RM69.00!! Sigh... it is expensive.

As I went through her wardrobe and I found out that 40% of her clothing were:

i. Too small

ii. Too short

iii. Too tight

She is growing up and I have buy some new clothing for her. I hope this blue dress will last her another two years. That will be a real bargain for me...

Scandinavian Apple Cake...

2011-09-12T11:52:00.008+08:00

Yesterday me and Twinkle decided to bake an apple cake. It is family's favourite. The cake is moist, not too sweet and easy to bake. The only draw back is that I have to spend more time to cut three apples in cubes! However it is worth an effort.

The recipe is using 225gm of butter, but I simply put the whole block of 250gm. I don't add cinnamon because I don't like the taste of it. I also skipped lemon juice because could not find any at home.

This is the apple cake supposed to look like as from the book.

This is my apple cake. I don't put icing sugar on top because it will make the cake too sweet. You can see the apple cubes.. It is so moist and buttery. Yummm... Damn, I forgot to pack it for lunch today. There are still left in the fridge....

I know.... I am drooling too..

Yup.. that's my usual assistant. Tomorrow is her birthday. I am taking leave tomorrow too. Will blog about her birthday...

Twinkle missing one tooth...

2011-09-07T08:15:00.005+08:00

Yesterday, she went to see the school nurse for her tooth to be pulled out. I guess she will be celebrating birthday with funny smile. She is very brave. When I asked her whether she was crying, she told me, "Only cry a little bit."

Cats, Billy and Twinkle....

2011-09-06T12:09:00.004+08:00

I love collecting smiley cats. They are cute and always look happy. In fact, I have three of them in my office. Oh ya, this picture is taken by Twinkle. There goes my camera....

Introducing.... Billy the lizard... He is one of our many pets. We have birds, cats... and chicken? I bought Billy because I like the colour of his eyes. It is gold in colour. Someone told me that if they reach to 500gm in weight, I can get a fortune by selling him... Hmm..

No introduction, Twinkle. She just want to show off her sunny. But it is too small for her now. I think I bought it few years back for her to wear. Sigh... she's getting bigger...

Chocolate Macaroon Cake

2011-09-05T13:10:00.007+08:00

Yesterday, me and Twinkle decided to bake a cake. Actually, it was her idea. I found this recipe from the book that I bought in Melbourne long time ago. The recipe is simple just because it does not involves creaming butter and sugar. Simply using oil.

Hmm... it was simple to make. I reduced sugar from 2 cups to 1 1/2 cups. Wise move since it taste just nice. However, I made a mistake by using normal cooking oil! I don't like the after taste of the oil. I should have used sunflower or canola oil. Oh well...

That's my assistant waiting for the cake to cool down before I put the topping.

Finally, she had a bite of it. She likes it since anything sweet is always delicious for any kid. Personally, I will not bake this cake again since I have a better chocolate cake recipe. There is one apple cake recipe from the same book which I really love to bake. I believe I already baked the same cake for more than three times. It tastes so good.... Yumm... Maybe next Sunday project...

Macau and Hong Kong...

2011-09-02T14:18:00.002+08:00

That's me... in Macau...

Hong Kong at night...

Mukah's New Church blessing on 21st October 2010

2011-09-02T08:48:00.002+08:00

Macau, Oct 2010

2011-08-29T15:03:00.008+08:00

Macau.... love it....

Journey to buy my own house...

2011-08-29T11:53:00.007+08:00

I want these kitchen............

Actually, I never thought of buying my own house. I am staying with my parents and life is good. My turning point was after my colleague pointing out that value of money is going to depreciate in the future but not for a house.

I end up hunting for a house and I found an intermediate double storey house. The price is within my budget and now I cannot simply spend my money like before. Everything has its priorities.

So, I have to cancel all this so called future purchases

Old list

Gorgeous Burberry handbag X

I need moreeeeeee bags!!!!

New mobile phone X

Thought of using my bonus to buy one...

Kitchen Aid Electric Mixer X

I just love the pink one!!

New List

House down payment

I have to use my retirement saving...

Lawyer’s Fees

This is expensive!!!

Furniture

Spent RM5K already...

Build in Kitchen cabinets

Since my future home is small, I have go for open concept kitchen. No wet kitchen for my house. I need to invest on that bloody sucking hood thingy and that already cost me RM 3k!!!

Grills for house

I hate you thief!!! Houses need grilss... Like living in the cage!!

Moving to new house is so costly and I'm responsible for all this bills!! Imagine that…

I will update soon once all the agreement of the purchase is signed.

Twinkle and spaghetti

2011-08-29T11:27:00.000+08:00

That's her.... Cooking spaghetti in the kitchen......

I love this funny picture!!

2010-08-11T19:50:00.001+08:00

It always makes me smile!

Twinkle... first day going to school (5th Jan 2010)

2010-08-10T19:06:00.003+08:00

That's my baby on the first day of school....
The night before going to her Chinese kindy...

She's growing up so fast.... can't believe she'll be 5 years old soon.

Bags....

2010-08-10T18:06:00.004+08:00

I know, it has been a year since my last entry. Why? Busy.... Even worst, I forgot my password!! Luckily, I still can reset my password.

A lot of things has been happening to me lately....

But, I just want to document it here... Thanks to that somebody, I have my own Louis Vuitton. He is beyond generous. I love you sayang!!!

Consequently, I become a bag whore myself. Now, I have my own Choe and Coach. Spent almost RM2k for two bags!( I want to hit my head sometimes!)

Since I have all bags in sizes that I want, I don't think I want to buy bags anymore. LV is for office work, Coach is my weekend bag.... Chloe is my adult wallet. I think my almost seven years old Burberry student wallet need to rest. She is somewhere tuck-in inside my drawer. Bought the wallet when I was in Melbourne....

Mukah on fire...

2009-08-04T08:54:00.002+08:00

This is my desk.... I really love Twinkle's picture here. Everytime I look at her, it always feels happy and never fails to make me smiles everytime. I count it as a blessing!

Yes, on the way to work... this is how Mukah looks like now. Foggy, smoky and not good at all. Mukah got to do something on the fires along Penipah road. Not to mention shortage of water supply due to main water pipe leak because of fire.

My new kittens

2009-08-03T11:01:00.003+08:00

On 1st of August 2009, I am a proud owner of five new kittens. My cat, Jojie gave birth to two males and three females.

Me and my friend agreed that each one of us will get one male and one female each. Extra female will be sold. Hmm... so far there is one buyer interested. We will be selling at RM800.00. That's a standard price.

As for my two extra babies, I choose male-grey and female-three colours. My intention is to keep both of them and not for sale. I can imagine during Christmas, these beauties will get all the attention. Twinkle seems to be very happy.

Twinkle and Lobster

2009-07-28T18:32:00.007+08:00

I know, I haven't been blogging almost a year... I have been busy with my works and finally I can actually breathe after almost a year. The project has been completed and we are now entering operation and maintenance.

Lobster.... first time I had it... at the age of 31...... Sounds very 'jakun' only. Haihh.... But Twinkle, four years old already tasted it. I had stomach ache after eating that 'thing'! My conclusion:

1. I don't like it

2. Bad experience after having it (went to clinic and the doctor injected my butt... for the pain!)

3. Not going to eat it anymore

But it seems Twinkle loves it..... Refer to all her pictures above... Okla....

Pictures of sites

2008-08-12T12:12:00.003+08:00

No wonder I am getting tanned unneccesarily... Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

Rainbows...

2008-07-25T12:02:00.005+08:00

I know... I haven't been active for the past few weeks.

Anyway.... rainbows!!! Double some more! Twinkle keeps on saying," Mummy!!! Canteekkkkk!" Well, it means... mummy... beautiful rainbows!

My baby... in church...

2008-07-05T13:21:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I am very reluctant to bring her along for Sunday mass... Well, she's not even three years old, definitely her level of concentration is wayyyyyyyyy low. I don't think I am going to bring her to church tomorrow. Maybe until she is four or five?

Al and Twinkle

2008-06-26T12:12:00.002+08:00

Al and Twinkle at Pustaka, Kuching...

I got this picture from my sister. Really love it! It just radiates love, bliss and love.... Can't stop smiling whenever I look at this picture...

Flowers around my house...

2008-06-09T08:14:00.028+08:00

It was cloudy yesterday...

Yesterday was raining and cloudy. It was a good weather for me to do some gardening. At least I have something to do since Twinkle is still in Kuching. She is coming back this Saturday.

Bibit, Twinkle's rabbit...

That's Twinkle's pet. Well, Twinkle is naughty towards her. Sometimes, purposely pokes her eyes! No wonder Bibit is scared of her whenever she approaches.

I just moved her here...

Actually, I was a little bit upset and dissapointed. With the price hike on petrol, I starts to worry about my daily budgets. But, in order to clear off my head and not to worry so much, I just simply do gardening. I did weeding, pruning and even plants some sunflower seeds. Luckily, I have cousin to help me up with the lifting and moving pots around.

I moved all of them here...

I moved all my ribbon bamboos here. I have three pots of them. My friends told me arranging them in three lines will give more luck. So, I did. I repositioned all the red ribbons to the eighth's leaves. The other two pots hasn't earned any ribbon yet since they haven't give me any flower. Oh ya, another two flowers coming up from the biggest one. Soon it will be 12 ribbons in total! Yeaaah! (I don't know why I am happy about this... I guess simple things makes me happy...).

Giant 'pandan' leaves, but this one is odorless....

I had these two plants for almost four years. Look at how big they are. All their 'kids' I've thrown away cause I want to make sure the 'mother' getting bigger. I save a few of them in smaller pots. You should see my hands now. Full with scratches!!! The edges of the leaves are studded with tiny and small thorns!!! I didn't wear gloves cause I don't want to spend money on unneccessary things.

Here's another one... a little bit bigger than the first one.

Wild tiger orchid...

Long stems....

Closer view...

After two years, the wild tiger orchid is blossomming again. I told my mum and she is thrilled about it. I did some weeding around her. Now, she is clean and looking gorgeous!

My current wallpaper...

All orchids are belong to my mum. Actually there's some more, but I just put 70% of it here. She's really passionate about her orchid. She will remind me to water her orchid whenever I called her. Sometimes, I told her the orchid needs to be on diet. Hehehehehe... Less water.

So, there you are. Things that I've done during weekends. Now I am thinking on locations to plant my nine seedlings of sunflowers.

Random...

2008-05-28T12:06:00.003+08:00

This is some of the quotes I've taken from http://daphneling.blogspot.com/ on her entry about her school teacher, Miss Puspa (30th March 2008). Her blog is one of the good reading blogs. Enjoy!

“Treat people like you would want your mother to be treated. Because every person you meet, whether he sweeps the road, or collects rubbish from the street, is someone’s mother. He or she may be only a rubbish collector to you, but he or she is a daughter, father, son, sister, wife, friend, husband to someone”

For a whole year, Ms Pushpa called me and my friends ‘names’ in class. I myself have been called everything from ‘pathetic’, ‘idiotic’, ‘weird’ to ‘individualistic’. Phrases like ‘never used brains’, ‘no brains’, ‘stoned’ and ‘cat got your tongue’ too has been made in reference to me…=)

It was only after one year that Ms Pushpa stopped calling us names, and one day she asked us if we knew why. We said no.She said “Because you have all learned and you have all grown up. You have learned that no matter what someone else calls you, it doesn’t make you any less of the person that you are. Words can hurt, but at the end of the day, they’re just words”…

“You don’t need to justify your happiness. A truly happy person never says ‘I am happy because…’. If you’re happy, you don’t owe anyone an explanation”.

Happy Birthday to you!

2008-05-24T01:00:00.001+08:00

The ribbons represents each flower that had blossomed. Yes... already more than 10!

Dear Cola's Papa,

Happy Birthday to you! I wish you lots of luck and blissful karma in this and the next life! Thank you for everything that you ave given me and Twinkle. There is no better friend than you, who loves and cares about me despite of what I had done to my life. You always been there for me even we are far away from each other.

A single bloom for your birthday for good luck!

Until then, I always hope that I will always have you. Till then.... hugs and kisses!

Yours Sincerely,

Twinkle's Mum

Twinkle!

2008-05-16T11:51:00.004+08:00

She is surrounded by her toys while watching Ultraman Dyna on Ceria

Aha, she is taller than before. I noticed she have her own opinion on certain things.

After afternoon shower... while busy watching TV

After coming back from work, I am actually responsible giving her bath and dinner in the afternoon. It is a good thing because I don't get to spend much time with her since I am out to work. That's the fact of being a working mother.

Fierce look? Scary huh?

Hahahaha, I bought Ultraman tops for her to wear. I guess the look on her face is an Ultraman monster thing imitation. Scary according to her interpretation.

Cola...

2008-05-13T09:11:00.001+08:00

I miss you!

2008-05-09T11:37:00.005+08:00

Lightning...

I received e-mail from my friend containing these amazing pictures. Hmmm.... I decided to put it in my blog just for everyone to see. I guess some of you might have seen it before.

Holding a sun

This guy is absolutely creative. Holding a sun in your hands! Remember some of the love song? "I give you the sun, the moon, the sky... etc". I guess this picture might be a validation of the song lyrics.

The edge of a hurricane

It look beautiful in this picture but NO ONE in the world wants to encounter it. So lucky Malaysia does not have hurricane. But Taiwan got.... right B?

Only in Thailand

When I first saw this picture, I was stunned. I don't think phyton is a safe pet to have around the house. But this little boy makes it look like a routine/normal to have a BATH with that blardyyy phyton! I hope that pet of his still remember, "Master IS NOT FOOD... Must refrain eat MASTER....". I guess because of limited brain capacity, a single threat ,"If you eat me.... You will be the next LV/GUCCI/PRADA Grade AAA imitation handbags or shoes!!" from the boy already frightened the snake..."

Twinkle and ultraman...

2008-05-08T09:25:00.005+08:00

Twinkle is ready..

She loves ultraman. My dad just happened to buy her this helmet. The cute thing is, whenever ultraman on tv, she will wears it and watch the show. Of course, she will try to 'zap' you with ultraman lightning too.

Still concentrating on TV!

But of course, I try to encourge her to watch Barney or Marsupilami. Less violence I guess. Oh ya, she still jumps on top of me.

Anita's wedding....

2008-05-06T11:04:00.004+08:00

I don't know how am I related to her, but I think she is one of my cousins from my mother's side. Her dad is Melanau but her mum is Iban. She looks beautiful and radiant! Don't you guys think so?

To Anita, congratulations to both of you. May both of you have a blessed and happy marriage!

My auntie and her cucu!

2008-04-30T08:47:00.006+08:00

Actually, my auntie had to carry both of them or else one of them would cry. The little boy is my nephew. He is 16 months old. Very cute eh?

I think this is funny....

2008-04-24T16:23:00.001+08:00

Hehehehe... I can't help it....

Twinkle and... chocolates on her face...

2008-04-21T11:59:00.003+08:00

Lately, after watching lots of wrestling, Jackie Chan the cartoon, Ultraman etc... she starts practising her skills on me. Hmmm... for example jumping on top of me, punching me into the stomach. Man..... she is not like before.... I mean, she is getting heavier and I can't simply cope with her playful abuses. It is amusing for her but not for me.

Maybe she should watch lots of Pingu rather than kung fu fighting cartoons. **sigh**

Oh my car... not even 1000 mileage...

2008-04-14T13:13:00.005+08:00

Yup, a clown decided to ram into my car. Hmm.. not even 736 mileage la my car. Blardy hell. Interestingly that lady clown has no license.

Well, the husband agreed to settle outside and pay the bill. Total is RM818. I am going to send my car to the workshop next Monday for three days. **sigh**

My ribbon bamboo..

2008-04-04T11:51:00.003+08:00

My ribbon bamboo got flowers!!! They say it is good luck to have flower. Actually, four of them. One dead, one still a bud... and other two... well, as the above. It makes me happy though knowing that my ribbon bamboo got flower. Yeahhhh!!

Good or Bad... Hard to Say...

2008-04-03T11:53:00.004+08:00

Once upon a time, there was a king. The king liked one of his followers very much because he was very wise and always gave very useful advice. Therefore the king took him along wherever he went.

One day, the king was bitten by a dog, the finger was injured and the wound was getting worse.
He asked the follower if that was a bad sign. The follower said, Good or bad, hard to say'. In the end, the finger of the king was too bad that had to be cut.The king asked the follower again if that was a bad sign. Again, the follower gave the same answer, 'Good or bad, hard to say'. The king became very angry and sent the follower to prison.

One day, the king went hunting in the jungle. He got excited when he was on the chase of a deer. Deeper and deeper he went inside the jungle. In the end he found himself lost in the jungle. To make thing worse, he got captured by the native people lived inside the jungle.

They wanted to sacrifice him to their god. But when they noticed that the king had one finger short, they released him immediately as he was not a perfect man anymore and not suitable for sacrifice. The king managed to get back to his palace after all. And he finally understood the follower's wise quote, 'Good or bad, hard to say'. If he hadn't lost one finger,he could have been killed by the native people.

He ordered to release the follower, and apologized to him. But to the king amaze, the follower was not mad at him at all. Instead, the follower said, 'It wasn't a bad thing that you locked me up.'
Why? Because if the king hadn't locked the follower up, he would have brought the follower along to the jungle. If the native found that the king was not suitable, they would have used the follower.

Again, the quote 'Good or bad, hard to say' stands.

The moral of the story:

Everything that happens in this world, there is no absolute good or bad. Sometimes good things turned out to be bad things eventually, while bad things become a gain.
Whatever good things that happen to you, enjoy it, but don't have to hold too tight to it, treat it as a surprise in your life.Whatever bad things that happen to you, don't have to feel too sad or despair, in the end, it might not be a total bad thing after all.

If one can understand this, he or she will find life much easier.

I have been through the lowest point of my life, lowest as in left by my ex while I am pregnant with his child. It is a common story that you heard about it before, but sometimes you never thought it will ever happen to you. Guess what, it happened to me.

Abortion? No la… a lot of cons and no pros. Besides, it doesn't kill me to keep the baby. Well, the sacrifice was I had to quit my job. Why I quit my job? I want my baby to be stress free in my tummy. Being single and pregnant was not a good combination at that time.

Broke and no job is not easy but somehow I survived. I still have my family that really support me. Luckily, I manage to get a job after that. Yeah… at least there is some happy ending to it. It is liberated to be independent knowing that you are capable to take care your child.

That jerk? Well, he is married. I know his wife has been reading my profile on Frienster. So, I put my baby pictures (she is exactly looks like him in that particular picture!!!). I even put remark, “Isn’t OUR baby gorgeous? Opss… I forgot, your pussy is dry, cannot have kids! Ha… ha… ha…” I can only imagine her rage, jealousy and frustration after reading that! I sure hope that it will haunt her forever. The next thing I heard, she went to see a mid-wife for a special massage to get pregnant.

Presently, my life is blessed with a baby, family and decent job. To say I am hatred free, I am in the process of healing myself. I am almost there but not quite yet.

I am lucky to have someone that makes me feel loved and to be in love again. Will it last? In every particle of my being, I want it to be. I can only wish. The reality is… I might have to accept that he will one day take another path. When you noticed the indifference, you know there is something wrong. Being at that point forced you to experience the heartache and loss all over again. The difference is it will be much harder for me to take. Even thinking of losing him makes me sad and alone to the point of endless tears.

HOPE… Whatever future hold, I will try to enjoy a blissful life that I have now.

I guess I need to read “Good or Bad… Hard to say” to remind myself that everything will be fine.

What's in the box?

2008-04-01T09:30:00.006+08:00

Big box....

Yes, I still keep the box even after two weeks of my holiday. Why? You will figure it out...

Now you understand why?

Ha..ha..ha.. Kids...

Cola's papa bought teddy bear and Barbie for her. She manages to play with it only for a while and get bored of it!! Yet... this box that used to pack my 20kg things makes her happy! I decided not to throw it away and just keep the blardy box at our verandah.

Look at her hair! She is always sweaty all the time. I feel intimidated with her hair! Hmm... luckily I remembered to buy hair clipper so that I can cut her hair easier. Not so bad for my first attempt....

He..he..he.. I took this blanket from MAS. Free what?

Tada!!!!

She looks better... and neat! I have to confess....there is a noticable uneven patch at the back of her head. It was her fault la!!! She couldn't stay still! Nope, I am not going to take picture of that. Pleaseeeeeee tell me that you guys love her new hair cut. She has no complain... yet.

Oh ya, yesterday (Monday) I took one day emergency leave because she had fever. My mum jokingly told me maybe because after her new weird boyish haircut from her self_declared_competent_hairdresser mother (which her CV states.. ehem...Experience: Can trim dog's aka Cola's hair/fur/tail or whatever you call it without causing any injury) she got this fever.

It might be over reacting but, when I saw her shaking and yet her temperature high, I was panicking and took her to the clinic. Hmmm... nothing serious though. Head, foot and mouth disease cases are still reported, so I just have to be sure that Twinkle does not have that **touch wood**.

When I left her for work this morning, she is back to normal. HAppy for that!

Melbourne...

2008-03-28T08:48:00.004+08:00

Clear blue sky....

For trams....

For trams too..

Flinders Station....

I've known Melbourne so much that I don't know what to talk about her. So, here are few pictures. Not much but hmm.... another entry to my blog la.

Part 3 - Simply Sydney

2008-03-25T13:48:00.011+08:00

These two really skinny guys are discussing about food...

Ok... part three is mostly about my two days roaming in the centre of Sydney aka shopping area. Just not to get myself lost, I started my journey along George St. It was an easy route for me to follow. Besides that, I had map with me. Hehehehehe.... I am always scared to get lost because I don't want to make unnecessary phone call just to get the right direction. It will be blardy frustrated to get direction from somebody who are busy with something.

I love the rainbow!

I love to do shopping by myself. The freedom of choosing a pair of T-shirts for hours without somebody saying, " Are you done?". It is not neccessarily you have to buy something... but being able to look and wondering around on things that you can't afford definitely therapheutic thing to do. Hey, I am from Mukah and Mukah don't have shopping malls OK? We have Ngiu Kee ONLY... Others, you guys might not recognise the names. Maybe 4D Magnum and CASH Sweep laaaa...

Clear blue sky... still along George Street

He entertained shoppers at David Jones

At David Jones, they even provide granpa playing piano for us shoppers!!! The deparment is mainly bags, shoes, perfumes etc for ladies. I spent two hours drooling over bags over there. They have Juicy Couture, DKNY, Oroton, Gucci, Escada, CK, BURBERRY, Coach etc. Sadly, I didn't get anything from there. I was tempted to get Oroton wallet for AUD114 (after 30% discount)... but I did not! Oh well.... the good thing, I really enjoyed the musics....

They have food court in here. Sushi roll in Sydney is cheaper... AUD1.60! Melbourne is AUD2.50!!!

I basically had two sushi rolls everytime I feel hungry. I love salmon and avocado. MMmm... If I feel hungry some more, I just dropped by at Hungry Jacks. Ahhhhh... Hungry Jacks is tastier than McDonald because their beef grilled.

Queen Victoria... Market? Hehehehe no la... they have posh outlet here, eg COACH, GUCCI etc...

That's her, Queen Victoria...

Speak No Evil, See No Evil, Hear No Evil!

Oh ya... that's one of the pubs along George St. I don't know what's it called. But interesting to see three famous monkeys at pub!!!

Hmm... that's all I have on Sydney. In sum, Sydney is a good place to go for holiday. I think, two days is enough to explore Sydney. But, I prefer Melbourne because I am more familiar with Melbourne. Besides, Cola's papa is in Melbourne. Hehehehehe...

Part 2 - Sydney Darling Harbour

2008-03-25T09:38:00.009+08:00

Sydney Darling Harbour at night...

Sydney Darling Harbour.... What a nice name.. you know.... as in Darling.... My auntie, being the youngest among 13 is called darling by all families. Sometimes, distant relatives doesn't know her real name and only known her as darling...

Ferry from Darling Harbour to Circullar Quay...

Well, I am not going to blog about her.... I am going to tell a little bit about my experience at Darling Harbour. The place is beautiful.... Well, beautiful as in the scenery and ambience. It is crowded but not overwhelming. I guess because I was there during weekdays. Talking about weather, it was just nice... around 26'C. HmmmmmMMmmm.....

A ship at Maritime Museum.. I think.. I didn't go there... :P

They have Wildlife Centre, Sydney Aquarium, Outback Centre and lovely park where people can go or chill out. It is a one place to go where anyone can explore a lot at one venue. I went to Sydney Aquarium only.... because I love fish. But, hmmmm I prefer KLCC Aquaria because KL have this biggggggggggggggggggggggggggg fish from amazon. I want to go there again... But, Sydney have seals.... KL don't have. Hehehehehehe... Oh.. it cost me AUD28 to see fish at Sydney Aquarium.

Across the bridge is Maritime Museum and more shopping plus restaurants...

I had the chance to go to this restaurant. Damn, I forgot what it was called. Me and my friend had this special menu, which was steak. Both of us had steak. Yumm.... He had medium raw... I had medium. Personally, medium raw tastes better! Per person cost AUD19.90. But it was worth it bcause of the ambience and the scenic view that we had from our table.

Darling Harbour....

What bird is this? Crane?

At night...

On the way to Darling...

Darling Harbour is the place to go whenever you are in Sydney. But do not forget to go to Sydney Opera House. If not, your trip is not complete.

Being Catholic....

2008-03-24T15:53:00.003+08:00

St Julian in Sydney at George Street...

I had the opporturnity to attend daily mass at St. Julian Church at George Street in Sydney. The church will be undergoing renovation and it will be done before Christmas... You can see on the altar is the Blessed Sacrament for adoration. Catholics believes that it is Jesus Himself is there.

St. Francis at Lonsdale Street in Melbourne

I remember when I was in Melbourne studying, I always find myself a time to go to this church. It is easy to go here because it is in the middle of the city. Even better, the church is enclosed between Melbourne Central and Myer. After praying, you can just simply go for shopping. Praying and shopping are theraphy...

The start of Palm Sunday at the courtyard of St Bede church in North Balwyn

This is the nearest church to my friend's place. It took me 20 minutes of walking from his house, but 5 minutes of driving. This year, I celebrated Palm Sunday and Good Friday in Melbourne in this church. But I didn't attend Easter Mass on Sunday because of my flight schedule to Malaysia. Hmm... oh well... It is not intentional...

Good Friday at St Bede where Catholics venerates the cross

In Melbourne, I noticed that Catholics do not take off their shoes when they venerate the cross. It is different in Mukah where Catholics take off their shoes and kiss the cross. I did take off my shoes and it seems I was the only one doing it. For those who does not know, we always celebrate Good Friday mass at 3pm because Jesus died at that time.

The thing that I miss in Melbourne is... to be able to go to church where you can venerate Holy Sacrament. It does not matter whether for five minutes or 2 long hours (if you have the time). In St. Francis, the veneration of sacrament is done everyday, except during mass.

Here in Malaysia, seldom Blessed Sacrament put out for adoration. The nearest you can venerate Him is the tabernacle. Oh well... *sigh**

My Twinkle....

2008-03-24T14:53:00.006+08:00

Dear Cola's papa...Thank you for the doll... I love you!

Yawns... Twinkle and her new teddy bear...

Twinkle in her bunny ears.... So cute!!

Part 1 - Sydney Opera House

2008-03-24T12:10:00.020+08:00

I am lucky to have the chance to visit Sydney Opera House. I had been to Sydney in 2000 but I did not really explore Sydney as I should. I was staying somewhere near Darling Harbour. So, I took ferry from Darling Harbour to Circullar Quay (pronounced as 'key', not ku weee... hmmm which I did...).

I love this view.... the water sparkles in the morning sun. By the way.. I took all the pictures using my mobile phone. I am rather happy with the result because the quality is not bad... considering it is only 2.0 Megapixels.

We were three days in Sydney... and the first two days, I was busy shopping in Sydney. I will blog about it later in another entry. Only the last day I went to Darling Harbour and Sydney Opera House. Oh ya.... I also went to Sydney Aquarium.... but I didn't take any good pictures since it was always dark inside. Mmmm.. I prefer Aquria KLCC la....

Oh ya.. that's me and my book. I love Eddings. I took all Belgariad and Mollereans Saga back home to Mukah... but sadly have to leave the rest behind otherwise my luggage will be over 20kg! Hahahaha.. me, Eddings and Sydney Opera House.

I took 1 hour Sydney Opera House tour which usually AUD32. But, I was lucky to have it for AUD25 since the lady at the counter kind enough to use one of the extra discount voucher she had. Ohh...... lucky me!

I have to wait one hour because the 10.30am and 11.00am were sold out. With nothing else to do (which I already done my shopping around the area earlier) I just sat and read my Eddings. Hahahaha... can you spot my shoe?

Before we went into the opera house, the tour guide told us that taking pictures inside the Sydney Opera House are prohibited. Basically it is because of copyright issues. But, some of us did not care (including me). But when he brought us inside the theatre, we did not take any pictures because we know it was strictly probihited. I guess for scenic view outside the theatre are still OK. Here... we were at this part of the opera house called cleavage.

This is also cleavage. Very deep right?

We had two videos presentation and one of them was this one. It was kinda cool because the image projected staright to the wall.

This private room is dedicated to the architect who is responsible with Sydney Opera House. Actually, no photos allowed but.... I couldn't resist! One hour visit... so worth it. That's the end of my one hour visit to the opera house.

This picture was taken from the outside of the opera house. You can see a group of people inside. That group was taken for tour inside the opera house... like the one I took earlier.

If you wondering what are the stairs going up to opera house look like.... this is how it is look like. Simple huh?

I always wondering about the wall of Sydney Opera House. So, I took a close-up pictures of it. It is only made of tiles... like common toilet tiles.. No offense OK?

Well... it is bigger than normal toilet tiles.. and of course.. it is more expensive la... Before I forgot, Sydney Opera House is already proclaimed as a world heritage site in 2007. Not too bad for a 33 years old building.

The rest were only Sydney Opera House in different angles. The last picture was taken from the sidewalk cafe, where I was enjoying my complimentary AUD1.00 orange juice. I did not have any food from the cafe because it was expensive!!! I end up having lunch at McD. Yummm.. love their Quarter Pounder burger....

About me after being tag lorr...

2008-03-03T12:27:00.015+08:00

SKINCARE

What facial cleanser do you use?

What moisturizer do you use?

How many times a day do you wash your face?

Twice

Do you use eye makeup remover?

Nope

Is your skin oily, dry, or combination skin?

Oily

What is the best part about your skin?

Err.. I am fair??

What are your skin problems?

Pimples and blackheads!!!!

MAKEUP

What foundation do you use?

MAQUILIQUIDE UV PERFECT FOREVER
What powder do you use?

Lancome MATT Finish

What eyebrow pencil do you use?

Bodyshop!!!

What eyeliner do you use?

Clinique Eyeliner

What is your favorite eyeshadow?

Christian Dior (cannot pind picture la)
What mascara do you use?

None
What are your favorite lipbalms/glosses/sticks?:

Lancome!!! Love this colour! Need to buy some more... almost finish!!

Pricey make-ups are my guilty pleasure... MMMmmmmMMmmm

HAIR

Do you color your hair?

Yes

What is your stylists name?

Dunno

What salon do you go to?

Somewhere cheap

What is your natural hair color?

Black
Do you have a straightener?

Nope
Do you use a blowdryer?

Nope

What shampoo do you use?

Clear Anti dandruff shampoo
What conditioner do you use?

Pantene

Do you use leave in conditioner?

YES!!

I coloured my hair just because my hair is very thin and fine... So... if I want to have long hair, need to colour lorr.... just to give a 'volume illusion'.

SCENTS

What deodorant do you use?

Speed for Women

What body wash do you use?

DETTOL, REDOX...
What perfumes do you use or like? Name five.
BODY SHOP-White Musk, Burberry Weekends, Christian Dior Forever and Ever, DKNY,GUCCI Rush....

Do you always have to smell good?

Damn yes!!! I go to site everyday, so I need to avoid sweaty smell la!!!

JEWELLERY

Are diamonds really a girl’s best friend?

No... gold is, can pawn if you need money.

What is your jewellery essential?

None... I buy gold for asset maa.. not to wear...

What jewellery do you wear most?

Watch...?
What jewellery do you crave most?

None...

Blardy hell... I spent so much time around guy that I don't appreciate jewelery... Only gold because they are asset!

PURSES AND SHOES

How many purses do you own?

My wallet, 2... my bag..3... so 5 all together la!
How many shoes do you own?

5 (Including one safety boots!)
Which pair is your favorite?

Safety boots is safe for me to wear to site laa...
Who is your favorite handbag designer?

Burberry!!!!! Waaaaa I want more!!!
Who is your favorite shoe designer?

Hush Puppies

THIS OR THAT:

Manolos or Jimmy Choos?

Choos laa... Malaysian laa
Dolce and Gabbana or Chanel?

CHANEL
Micheal Kors or Bebe?

None
Louis Vuitton or Coach?

COACH!!!
Gucci or Prada?

GUCCI

MISCELLANEOUS
Favourite magazine to read?

COSMOPOLITAN
Favorite nail polish?

LOREAL
Favourite Book?

Anything by Eddings, Catholic Saints...

Favorite Band?

None

Favorite Girly Movie?

Bring It On

Are you high maintenence?

NO!!!
Do you enjoy being a girl?

YES

Twinkle, chef in PJ!

2008-02-27T08:26:00.007+08:00

Hmmmm... let me think... what are the ingredients?

You only add a little bit of sugar... not too much!!

Then you can add milk to the mixture....
So... you better follow the recipes or else... I will give you this evil grin.... HMMPPHHH!!!

This is funny....

2008-02-25T13:39:00.000+08:00

Twinkle n slides....

2008-02-25T12:42:00.005+08:00

Iyah..... I am almost there!!

Wahhhhh nice view from here!!!

Yahoo... I've made it!!!

Twinkle....

2008-02-18T11:13:00.005+08:00

My bibi.... Kiss kiss from mummy!!

Ahhhh.... isn't she adorable? Hmmm another beach's trip for me and her. Oh ya.. she is not wearing any diapers anymore (except at night). Of course I am happy about it. Hmm... simply because of she is all grown up... and cut cost spending on her diapers!

I can't wait for my vacation to Melbourne. Yahoooooooo....... I am soooo happy to see my *ehem*. Hehehehehe.... I want to eat pizza with bacon on it!!! Yummy!!

2008: Year of Rat

2008-02-15T11:23:00.002+08:00

Ok... I stumble into this... Hmm... So.. keep on reading ya all!

THE RAT (Water): (1912, '24, '36, '48, '60, '72, '84, '96, 2008)
A year to find the place where you feel you can lead others best. Leadership will be important. Others may seek you out as a way of drawing on your expertise. Make sure that you are in projects to help others as well, so that the benefits flow to you from your good intentions. Don't get stuck in time-wasting work this year. Focus on your progress for 2008.

THE OX (Earth): (1913, '25, '37, '49, '61, '73, '85, '97, 2009)
This is a very good year for the Ox, as the Rat supports you in your endeavours. Avoid being in negative situations where others try to influence you to look on the down side. This is a year to do things to help others, and you'll love doing it at the same time. Many opportunities will emerge for you in 2008.

THE TIGER (Wood): (1914, '26, '38, '50, '62, '74, '86, '98, 2010)
Tigers enjoy being the centre of things, but this year will be more of a year where you have to ride along with it. The benefits will flow if you have challenges, and positive works will then flow from what you do. Pig and Dog year people will be very helpful for you this year. Offer them some help, too.

THE RABBIT (Wood): (1915, '27, '39, 51, '63, '75, '87, '99, 2011) This year may well be the personal year of delving into your past and your own deeper issues. If you develop any romantic attractions to others, make sure that you are clear on what you want and who they are, otherwise it may surprise you the wrong way. The normal worrying that overtakes the Rabbit is not useful this year. Be calm and appreciate others, so that you can see their potentials.

THE DRAGON (Earth): (1904, '16, '28, '40, '52, '64, '76, '88, 2000)
The Rat year certainly favours the Dragon, and this is your year for leadership. You'll find that things fall into place more easily this year. If you team up with a Rat, Monkey or Rooster person, you'll be helped considerably. You have the chance to expand your money this year. Be primed for any opportunity.

THE SNAKE (Fire): (1905, '17, '29, '41, '53, '65, '77, '89, 2001)
There's a lot of activity around you in 2008 – and the trick is to be in the right place to take advantage of it. After 2007 having been a bad year for you, 2008 is now welcome. Make it clear what you stand for and don't compromise any of your principles. Team up with a Monkey or an Ox this year for help. Avoid gossip and negative slander sessions with others.

THE HORSE (Fire): (1906, '18, '30, '42, '54, '66, '78, '90, 2002)
This year is a clash between the Rat and Horse. It's a serious clash between Water and Fire elements, which can bring injury or accidents. Therefore those born in the year of the Horse have to be particularly careful about clashing. Born in the Horse year, you need to carry the pendant of an Ox all year which will help neutralise the Rat, and minimise any negative influences. The year still has potential for you, if you avoid the personal clashes. Loving yourself is a key emotion this year.

THE SHEEP (Earth): (1907, '19, '31, '43, '55, '67, '79, '91, 2003)
You're given lots of encouragement this year from others that you didn't know appreciated you. You don't have to work right up front, as you'll find that doing things in the background will work better for you. There can be a romance in the air this year if you need one, or your relationship will deepen very much in 2008. Don't be afraid to stand up for what you want. Also don't be afraid to wait a bit on the sidelines, as things are will be falling into place for 2009.

THE MONKEY (Metal): (1908, '20, '32, '44, '56, '68, '80, '92, 2004)
Monkeys stand to get lots of recognition this year – and lots of opportunities to be where you can get your projects done. The Rat favours you, but make sure you don't step on toes, especially from people in the past. Its a good year to show your talents; you can find a helpful person in the Rat or Dragon personality.

THE ROOSTER (Metal): (1909, '21, '33, '45, '57, '69, '81, '93, 2005)
The year is going to be one that gives you challenges, though at times it will seem over the top. Your big direction this year is to develop clarity about how you work on the inside. You often have leadership positions, but they will be challenged this year. Your lesson is around how well you can hand over leadership to others – you are so used to leading that maybe you don't question yourself. Take a lesson from your heart and follow it in 2008. Cooperation is a theme for you.

THE DOG (Earth): (1910, '22, '34, '46, '58, '70, '82, '94, 2006)
The year is going to bring you lots of energy and it will seem that you may miss out on things if you cannot align your energies to everyone else. You appreciate the energy of the year and can get great help from the Rat. Remember your aspects of compassion, understanding and being gentle with others. Set aside times for yourself and go away for the weekends with plenty of time to relax and escape. Try a retreat in 2008.

THE PIG (Water): (1911, '23, '35, '47, '59, '71, '83, '95, 2007)
The year of the Rat is about opportunity and work, business and more hard work. The Pig, on the other hand, prefers to take time out, live it up and enjoy the benefits of his environment. In the Rat year, you have to take note of work and see where others are at. There will be a lot of activity going on around you and its important to make sure you can move along with some of it. Your sense of the good times will be in demand and others will appreciate your natural cheer and goodwill. Stay in your place, do what you need to help others and you'll make it through the year okay.

Anyway, I am FIRE SNAKE... Good year for me though. Oh well... I really need it anyway...

Songs that I listened to currently...

2008-02-06T09:38:00.000+08:00

Ku Mahu

Dato' Siti Nurhaliza

Sesaat ku terkesima

Pada indah personamu

Sekilas kau senyum padaku

Melarutkanmu dalam kasihku

Sesaat ku terpesona

Pada warna ceriamu

Sayangnya telah ku hidu

Semua paparanmu palsu

Indah impian cintaku

Namun realiti tak seharum

Yang ku impikan kerna

Cintamu tak sejati

Ku mahu kesetiaan dan kejujuran

Kasih sayang yang tiada bersempadan

Pengorbanan cinta yang tulus dan lahir dari keikhlasan
Namun kau hanya mampu memberi janji palsu

Dan kita pun terdorong hawa nafsu

Semua yang kau berita benar dan tak kan menjadi erti

Selamanya takkan ku lupa

Kau ajar ku seksa

Kau pandai berkata-kata

Hingga aku derita

Selamanya ku berjaga-jaga

Tak sanggup ku kenang

Cukuplah sekali terluka

Kan ku ingat sentiasa

Indah impian cintaku

Namun realiti tak seharum

Yang ku impikan kerna

Cintamu tak sejati

Ku mahu kesetiaan dan kejujuran

Kasih sayang yang tiada bersempadan

Pengorbanan cinta yang tulus dan lahir dari keikhlasan
Namun kau hanya mampu memberi janji palsu

Dan kita pun terdorong hawa nafsu

Semua yang kau berita benar dan tak kan menjadi erti

Aku bukanlah boneka mu

Ku tak rela dipermainkan

Lebih baik sendiri

Dari terseksa di tangan mu

Apa yang aku mahu
Indah impian cintaku

Namun realiti tak seharum

Yang ku impikan kerna

Cintamu tak sejati

Ku mahu kesetiaan dan kejujuran

Kasih sayang yang tiada bersempadan

Pengorbanan cinta yang tulus dan lahir dari keikhlasan
Namun kau hanya mampu memberi janji palsu

Dan kita pun terdorong hawa nafsu

Semua yang kau berita benar dan tak kan menjadi erti

Ku mahu kesetiaan dan kejujuran

Kasih sayang yang tiada bersempadan

Pengorbanan cinta yang tulus dan lahir dari keikhlasan
Namun kau hanya mampu memberi janji palsu

Dan kita pun terdorong hawa nafsu

Semua yang kau berita benar dan tak kan menjadi erti
Ku mahu!

What goes around-comes around

Justin Timberlake

Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man

You know I gave you the world

You had me in the palm of your hand

So why your love went away

I just can't seem to understand

Thought it was me and you babe

Me and you until the end

But I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it

Don't want to talk about it

I'm just so sick about it

Can't believe it's ending this way

Just so confused about it

Feeling the blues about it

I just can't do without ya

Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?

Is this how we say goodbye?

Should've known better when you came around

That you were gonna make me cry

It's breaking my heart to watch you run around

'Cause I know that you're living a lie

That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

Now girl, I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is I was ready to give you my name

Thought it was me and you, babe And now, it's all just a shame

And I guess I was wrong Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it

I'm just so sick about it

Can't believe it's ending this way

Just so confused about it

Feeling the blues about it I just can't do without ya

Can you tell me is this fair?

Is this the way things are going down?

Is this how we say goodbye?

Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)

That you were going to make me cry

Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around

'Cause I know that you're living a lie

That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

What goes around comes around

Yeah What goes around comes around

You should know that What goes around comes around Yeah

What goes around comes around

You should know that

Don't want to think about it (no)

Don't want to talk about it I'm just so sick about it

Can't believe it's ending this way

Just so confused about it

Feeling the blues about it (yeah)

I just can't do without ya

Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way things are going down?

Is this how we say goodbye?

Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)

That you were going to make me cry

Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around

'Cause I know that you're living a lie

But that's okay baby 'cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

What goes around, goes around, goes around

Comes all the way back around

[Comes Around interlude:]

Let me paint this picture for you, baby

You spend your nights alone

And he never comes home

And every time you call him

All you get's a busy tone I heard you found out

That he's doing to you

What you did to me

Ain't that the way it goes

You cheated girl

My heart bleeds girl

So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt

Just a classic case

A scenario Tale as old as time

Girl you got what you deserved

And now you want somebody

To cure the lonely nights

You wish you had somebody

That could come and make it right

But girl I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy

You'll see (What goes around comes back around) I thought I told ya, hey (What goes around comes back around)

I thought I told ya, hey

(What goes around comes back around)

I thought I told ya, hey (What goes around comes back around)

I thought I told ya, hey

See?

You should've listened to me, baby

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Because (What goes around comes back around)

Sekarang ni.. aku tengah seronok dengar dua lagu ni. Tak bermaksud aku jiwang karat kerr.. Cuma aku suka dengan melodi kedua-dua lagu ni. Yang peliknya.. dua-dua frust nonggeng. Siap aku taruk love banyak-banyak. Hoi... aku bukan minah bunga laaaa...

Pictures...

2008-01-30T16:17:00.000+08:00

Staff quarters....

This is the picture that I took from turbine bay... The sky is just amazing...... I can imagine myself writing bad poetry while sitting in my living room...

Power plant...

Hmm... this is the first time I am posting the power plant picture... Gosh.. actually I am kind of reluctant to do it... but the view is simply breath taking!!! Hmmm... it was blardyyy hot when I took this picture.

So guys... enjoy the pictures....!

Part of my job...

2008-01-29T12:33:00.000+08:00

On top of turbine! Do not stare at my ugly half painted nails! Ignore the butterfly on my sandals!!!

We had turbine inspection last Saturday, so I volunteered myself to come (part of learning laaa). It was interesting to be involved. Well, I was basically looking at them (the Chinese contractor and our technician with turbine engineer) doing verification on all the values. As client, we have to be happy with the result, or else.. DON'T SIGN!! Hehehehehe... well, we have to protect our interest too la!

Well, that is how turbine rotor looks like before it covered with turbine casing...

Standing at the edge of the turbine was actually quite dangerous. It was quite a height. You can see that in the first photo. Anyway, it was not a big deal because you just need to be extra careful. Lucky me... I don't have any phobia with height. Or else, I will be a monkey in the company who will be whining all the time about being scared of HEIGHT!!

Another view... Can you see our quarters?

Today, the turbine will be covered. So, there is no way for us to see what inside until major overhaul ( meaning, big maintenance... open up everything and do all the checking for every single bolt and nuts! It is done maybe once in three years). Unit #1 is done.... Unit #2 is on the way....

Moon...

2008-01-25T08:17:00.000+08:00

View from my verandah

I am always fascinated by moon. I even installed a widget to monitor how 'full' is the current moon. Last night, she was 92.9% full. Full moon was on 23, I think (That's according to my widget).

I "zoomed" her...

Anyway, I managed to take some pictures of it. But, it is not doing any justice to it since it is actually more beautiful than what you see on the photo. Maybe I need a BIG torch light so I can illuminate the surrounding.... you know... better lighting to capture the image? HMmm... not so practical right.

Three Japanese girls...

Since I am frustrated with the pictures, I decided to take other picture. Well, I bought these dolls from my trip to Beijing. Nice right? I remember saw these dolls somewhere in Kuching. It was very expensive, like RM200+ each. No way I am going to buy them! Then, lucky me, from my trip to Beijing I was able to buy few of them. I spent RM100 to get five of them!! Hehehehe, what a bargain!

Another two...

Twinkle and her new hair cut!

2008-01-07T10:23:00.000+08:00

Twinkle feeding chickens

I cut her hair. Actually, it has been a war between me and her. "Cut hair ok?". "NO!!". She hates it when I try to cut her hair.

Twinkle and Al...

So, luckily on Sunday, I managed to persuade her to cut her hair. The reason was simply, there was a little boy waiting in line to get haircut. So, me and my sister were telling Twinkle how cute and handsome the boy after having his haircut. Twinkle was excited and she also eager to get her own haircut!

Twinkle and her... swing?

I didn't take any pictures of her having her hair cut simply because I didn't want to pissed her off. So, only the 'after' pictures are eligible.

Smiley faces...

2008-01-03T13:43:00.000+08:00

Twinkle is eating Dedek's little plastic fingers (her doll called Dedek)

Well, I guess it is a good idea to put a happy pictures of kids. So, that's Twinkle with her doll Dedek (given by Auntie Theresa to her). You know what, whenever she is naughty, I just grab Dedek and hit the doll on the bum. Then, Twinkle will starts to cry and stop doing whatever she's been doing and running towards me to rescue Dedek. Hehehehehe, I try to avoid pinching or hitting her ( oi... I am not abusing my baby, but I give her some hit on her bum, which is protected by her pampers!!). Even worst, I even hit her Patrick (the soft toy that always accompany her to sleep). Then, she will be like....... "Mummyyy!!!!! Sorry!!!". Then, as always trying to rescue her soft toy from further abuse by me.

Alip is trying to tell everyone there is cicak or lizard on the ceiling

Alip, my 11 months old nephew. He is simply gorgeous. Whenever I am with Alip, Twinkle will be fuming with jealousy. She starts to pull me, making funny noises or even SUCKING Alip's pacifier!! Anything la to get cheap publicity. Mind you, Twinkle does not do any pacifier thingy. My sister has to buy extra pacifier in case both of them want it. Haiyaaa!!!

This picture simply melt my heart...

Me and Twinkle has the same eyebrows... Macam eyebrows rabbit kata my sister!

The other two pictures... hmm just loving it. It is simply therapheutic by gazing at it. It is almost... what can I say... stress free pictures. Kids... they are just simply blessing in life. Lucky me, I have one.

Widya's wedding pictures...

2008-01-02T11:31:00.000+08:00

Family photo. I am in blue dress standing next to my seated auntie. Happy now? Hehehehe

This is an overdue entry. But, better late than never. Anyway, the wedding was on 30th November 2007. It was fun. So, enjoy the pictures!

Widya and hubby Richard

Michelle and her boyfriend

Ashley...

To Widya and Richard.... Have a Blessed and Happy Marriage...

Subet idak idak anek! Hehehehhe

Cakes for Christmas...

2008-01-02T08:45:00.000+08:00

Kek Intan Tiga Lima or Diamond Three Five's Cake? Wakakakakaka? Macam sial jer bunyi dia!

Ok, I bake my own cakes. Why? It is cheaper and I have time to do so. I have to do it on weekends and night time. My guests seems to be suprised that I baked my own cake! Wahh... they thought I don't know how to bake or cook aye'? Cehhh... A girl need to know at least how to bake a simple cake, such as butter cake.

Personally, Kek Intan Tiga Lima took the longest time to finish. I started at 2pm and finished at 7pm!!! Waaaaaaaaaaaaaa... But it tastes delicious!! No leftover for this cake. It was my first attempt to bake this cake too.

Kek Lapis Evergreen or Evergreen Layer Cake

Kek Lapis Evergreen is my favourite. It is delicious, even Twinkle loves it! Easy to make and always a hit to my guests. Aiya.. no leftover la for this one too. Oh ya, I baked this cake few times already.

Kek Lapis India or Indian Layer Cake

This cake is delicious but next time I think I want to alter the recipe. I was too generous with the chocolate and hence it is too rich and fuckinggg sweet too! Need less sugar. It was also a mistake to put dessicated coconut since it crumbles easily! Damn hard to cut in small pieces. Maybe next time, I will have better luck baking it to perfection. I still have a quarter left in the fridge. Hmmm... personally, not a bad first time attempt. Still edible though!

Twinkle and Christmas in Mukah...

2007-12-31T11:07:00.000+08:00

Our Christmas tree

Christmas is the time of the year where family and relatives will come together and exchanging news. Mukah seems to be a focal point for all Melanau who celebrates Christmas. Every year, Mukah seems to be overflow with people coming home from all over places to celebrate Christmas here. As for our family, it is no exception. Some of my cousins who has not been to Mukah for years (which I haven't seen them for 10 or 15 years) celebrates Christmas here. It is good to see them again. They were really 'polite' with me and Twinkle. However, Twinkle's charm seems to enlighten everyone.

Twinkle in white dress

Twinkle seems to be very happy this year. Her awareness to the surrounding seems to be more acute. Well, this year I painted my home in lemonade colour. She was excited and keeps on saying,"Cantik lebok mummy!!!". Well, it means mummy house's is beautiful.

Twinkle in hot pink dress

Our four years old and ripped dark blue sofa has been changed. It is heartwarming to see Twinkle screaming and jumping up and down to see people sending the set to our home.

Next to Christmas tree

I have been re-arrange all the photos on the wall. There is no new family photos, so it is still my old photos when I was 17 years old with a very short hair! Hmmm...

Dead python with chicken inside her belly!

2007-12-18T08:37:00.000+08:00

This morning, when I was on the way to work.... saw a small gathering next to the road. So, being a busy body, I stopped AND BLARDY HELL!!! A dead python!!! Since I have camera with me... nervously I took few pictures of her.

A dead python with chicken inside her belly.

Man... that's really long...

I wonder what will they do to her? Sell it to the Chinese? Or just simply get the skin and ta daaaa... new belt and shoes?

Melanau's Wedding

2007-12-17T08:47:00.000+08:00

When I was small, I used to take a plunge here with my cousins...

Last Saturday and Sunday were a little bit tiring and yet unforgettable for me. Well, my uncle got married and his marriage is documentated by RTM and TV3 for being a Melanau's Wedding. It is one of the ways to show people in general the tradition and custom of Melanau people. I have no idea when are they going to show it on TV.

These are the gifts to the bride from the bridesgroom. If you look carefully, there is a coconut as one of the requirements.

Well, I am not going to tell all the details of Melanau's custom on getting married because it is confusing and I don't want to give wrong information. A marriage affair for Melanau is for me a little bit complicated and intricate. There are a lots of do's and don'ts. However, it is quite pleasing to see and involve in this tradition and custom instead of only having a 'cowboy marriage'. You know, go to the registration office, signed and have a lavish dinner.

The representative is counting the money before they are going to the brides'.

On the way to the brides'. Hehehehe, when I was small the bridge was a platform to jump off the river.

That's my sister, Alip's mum.

At brides' house, where all the negotiations taking place.

Note the beautiful background where the brides will be on 'display' tomorrow.

At night, where entertainment is in the form of singing and dancing or 'bergendang' as we called it in Malaysia.

The bridesgroom and his mum, aunties, cousins. Not to mention all the beautiful kebaya nyonya...

Ah.... of course, Twinkle and her auntie (aka my third cousin).

My cousins in beautiful traditional Melanau costume.

Kids and my sweet Twinkle...

On the wedding day where mother in law is tying traditional beads... one of the many customs...

Still tying the beads... they called the beads "manik kahet".

Bracelet....

Finally, it is done....

Godfrey and Sally... in traditional Melanau costume...

My sister and Alip, my auntie, my mum and Twinkle, and of course the couple....

Ok, the reason why there is no picture of me beacuse I was 'busy' taking pictures of others. But, I did wear that pink kebaya. It was challenging for me because I need to take care of Twinkle and at the same time trying to be involved as much as I can. As usual, on of my typical busy body aunties asking me,"Eh.. when is yours going to be?". I looked at her and told her,"No need la... I already have Twinkle". Hehehehe padan muka!

To the couple.... Congratulations.... May both of you have a blessed marriage and lots of kids!

Twinkle in pyjamas....

2007-12-14T09:45:00.000+08:00

That's me and Twinkle.... Awww...

You look what?

I love my mummy... hehehehe

Lately I have been using facebook. Suprisingly, I actually can track down my cousins in US and Australia. Well, it is easier since we have common surname. In my Friendster and Facebook, I practically use my real name for tracking purposes. Nope, I am not going to publish my real name here. Hehehehehe... Biarlah rahsia

I am grateful today...

2007-12-13T14:16:00.000+08:00

I am grateful that I...

..... am healthy

..... have Twinkle

.... have a friend who cares for me

..... am blessed with loving family

..... have a job
..... have faith regardless of anything... :)

..... still believe in love..

Flowers... around my house

2007-12-13T08:19:00.000+08:00

Ok... tigerdens, just for you... so any illegal plant around my house? Hehehehehehe....

Twinkle and spaghetti...

2007-12-11T08:19:00.000+08:00

Lately, Twinkle seems lost her appetite to eat. Well, she usually takes porridge, cheese and Bovril. Of course, I do put fish, vegies and eggs for variation.

Anyway, she loves eating spaghetti. Thanks to Prego spaghetti sauce. The problem is, I am running out of it and it is difficult to find it in Mukah. I might ask the courtesy of my friends or my sister to buy in bulk in Sibu or Kuching.

Or maybe I make my own spaghetti sauce. Well, I just need tomato puree as a main ingredient. The rest is readily available. Hmmm... that is my second option. Luckily I bought Mc Cormick dry oregano. It is the essential ingredient to make spaghetti tastes good! If she stops eating spaghetti, there always mash potato for her to eat. Sometimes she eats it, sometimes she's not. Always depend on her mood!

Burberry..

2007-12-10T12:47:00.000+08:00

Oh.... this bag drives me nuts! I just love burberry... I believe this bag is just ideal for me simply because it can keep Twinkle's bottle, my mobile phone, my lipsick, wallet etc...

Oh yeah bebeh!!! The Law of Attraction will bring you to me. I HAVE U!!! (Note: It is in present tense... he.. he.. he..).

My nephew and wedding in Kuching (no photo of wedding though)

2007-12-04T10:05:00.000+08:00

This is Al... 11 months old.

Ok, I did attend my cousin's wedding on Friday, 30th November. But I have to apologise since I don't put any wedding pictures. Well, the reason is I don't have camera. But, do not despair because my sister have few photos of the wedding. So, have to wait for her to come to Mukah for the picture then.

Isn't he adorable?

It is a good opportunity for me to attend the wedding because I met lots of family member who I haven't met since we were in secondary school. Aunties, uncles, cousins etc... Not to mention the boogie boogie dance we had later of the night! (Thanks to vodka and orange juice... hehehehe).

Sleepy eyes...

I met my boss and apparently he quite suprised to see me in dress. I think he forgot that I am girl and knowing me always in jeans and T-shirt he might thought that I am one of the boys. Trust me, girls don't wear dress, miniskirt, baju kurung or kebaya at site!

Mummy, where are you going?

Anyway, let's talk about my nephew. His name is Alip... 11 months old.... He does look like Twinkle a little bit huh?

Auntie.. you look weird with wires attached to your teeth!

He knows how to stand up, but not yet walking. I wonder if both of them put together in a room. Sure Twinkle jealous punya! Hehehehehehe

Pink kebaya

2007-11-27T08:38:00.000+08:00

Front view

Ok, finally my kebaya is ready. I really love it!!! Yay! My own kebaya. In fact, my mum is on the way making the second one in blue colour for herself. I am going to wear this for wedding in Kuching this Friday and another wedding in Mukah on the 15th December.

Back view with Twinkle trying to grab my ass!

I am going to wear black kain so that the motive can be seen clearly. Now... I have to think what hair style should I do? The right jewellery.. And shoes!! I need to buy a pair of new shoes!!

When it is raining at site...

2007-11-21T12:47:00.000+08:00

Site view from my office

It is raining almost the whole day. But it is no suprise since it is monsoon season. Instead of being miserable, I am thankful for it because the workers can relax a little bit. Definitely it is not good for the project since rain means delay. Oh well, I can relax more in the office.

My boobs...

So, I decided to take any pictures for this entry. Hehehehe... that baby-T is from my recent trip from Beijing. Funny I did not get Melbourne Hard Rock Cafe T. I guess I might be getting it in the next trip.

My table...

Oh ya, that's my table. Notice the stationery box... it is a cut off from some box. Let's just say... I am environmentalist and contributing something to the environment. Hehehehe...

My safety boots and my slipper...

Well, that's my trustful safety boots. I need to change that socks. Smelly and dirty already... Oh.. I am so disgusting. It is a must to wear safety boots because you don't want any rusty nails poking into your feet and the next thing you know you need a tetanus shot!!! God forbid!

Twinkle..

2007-11-20T13:50:00.000+08:00

This is Twinkle... with this sweet and adorable look...

Ok... People asking me why do I put a lot of babies picture in my blog? Well, how can I not do that since she is my daughter. I believe it is a good idea since I can keep her pictures here instead of locked away in my thumb drive. Thanks to digital camera, I can take as many pictures I want.

That's me... in orange :)

I love this particular shot. She looks like an angel here... like praying or meditating. Don't you just love it?

Her eyes is round and she has dimples too! ( Only visible if she smiles!)

Actually, it is very challenging to keep her still since we are talking about 2 years old model here!! I don't blame her for hating flash light shoved into her face. Oh well, flash light is good to capture the essence of her... Chewahh....

She is just being cheeky here!

According to others, Twinkle is very fair. But for me... hmm not that fair since I am much fairer than her. I don't know about Asian obsession of being fair but... believe it or not.. I am also taking vitamin to make myself fair!! Reason??? Because I always go to site and it is unkind condition to my skin. Slowly, I am getting myself tanned regardless of long sleeve shirt or SPF 60++ lotion I've been using. Oh well.... I've tried everything, haven't I?

Flowers...around my house..

2007-11-15T08:54:00.000+08:00

This one has a very long stem..

My mother loves flower... When she is not busy with Twinkle (usually around 6.00 am to 7.00am, when Twinkle is still sleeping), she will be tending her orchid. Well, since I have camera... it is another way for me to capture the beauty of the flower... You know... like a database thingy.... Sooner or later, all the flowers will die.. so better keep a log/photos of them while they are stil pretty... Sadly, I don't really know their names....

Actually, this is wild orchid.. from the jungle...

I love this flower... it is actually creepers... the smell is enticing.... especially at night... But scary at the same time... Kinda reminds me vampire or "pontianak".

The flower actually outside our verandah, 'climbing' our house's post.

This one is simply gorgeous... Love the colour.... This picture is my wallpaper... :)

More on Twinkle...

2007-11-14T10:04:00.000+08:00

This is Twinkle expecting something...

How adorable....

She is caught in between of my legs while I am trying to get a good shot!

Let me go! $#%&*

MUM!! I CANNOT STAND THE FLASH LIGHT!!!

Ok.. I give up!!!

Twinkle, when she is angry...

2007-11-13T09:12:00.000+08:00

This is how she looks like when she is 'merajuk'. What is 'merajuk' in English? It is not angry... It is a mix of angry, annoyed, frustrated, dissapointed etc.

Here, she is 'merajuk' since I didn't allow her to touch the camera... Funny how she put this 'look' on her face and both of her hands are behind.

Then, she starts to look away... But hey.. noticed a hint of smile on her face. She just being playful...

Notice that 'apek' pj? Well, I always love to see her in that... So cute... My mum made it for her... Besides.. it is very tough and you can always throw it into the washing machine. No handwash... very easy!

My own kebaya... (in the making)...

2007-11-06T13:23:00.000+08:00

That's my pink kebaya in the making. Mum refused to use electric sewing machine for the reason,"This is expensive!!! Better use traditional method". Whatever lah mum... Heeehe

Ok... Whenever there is a function, it is always a hassle to think, "What am I going to wear?" You see, I have a wedding to attend. It is going to be end of this November.

The truth is, I never wear any gown or evening dress just because I don't feel comfortable in it. I've tried before, and I don't like it. Never found any dress that I really like. However, I always love to wear kebaya or baju kurung.

You see, I am lucky to have my mum who can tailored kebaya nyonya. Hahahahaha... she is doing one for me. Hey, I had one before and she gave it away to my cousin!! I was like..."WHat??!!" So, I deserved this one, OK?

It is pink in colour.... the colour is like very bright. Actually, I want other colour, but my mum said... why not this colour? I was like.... Ok la..... I hope I can feel

enough to be in pink...

Ceh.... day dreaming.. I wonder how am I going to look good when I'm still wearing braces??!! Do guys find it attractive to look at girls wearing braces? Hmmmm....

Wuhan, China (28/10/07 to 5/11/07)

2007-11-03T23:34:00.000+08:00

For the past few days, I couldn't log in to my blog. I guess the reason is China bans blog's website. But today, I can log in! Yay!! Oh, BTW.. that's me, at Shanghai Airport,waiting for the next plane to Wuhan...

I don't really go around much. And besides, to take pictures... it is almost impossible because my hands freezing!!! I don't have much pictures to show though.

Basically, I am having training in Chin San Power Plant at Wuhan, China for a week. The weather average is 10 to 15'C. That is why I am having flu at the moment!

Oh ya, the picture above is turbine. Wahhhh so biggggggg....

Single unit can produce 300MW... As for Mukah... small only.... 135MW per unit.... We have two of them and yet... only 270MW. And... Chin San have 5 units of 300MW!!!! Hehehe I am easily impressed...

Just a view...

2007-10-25T14:26:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I went up to the top of our power plant building... 55.6m above the ground. You can actually see unfinished staff quarters. Hmm, I'll be staying in one of the semi-d houses.

Well, it is a daily task for me to go to site. Unfortunately, being a woman, I can't avoid monkeys and babi hutan whistling at me everytime I walked pass by them. Maybe one of these day, I just go to them and say " Hey... you are fired!" or "Hari ini ambil gaji. Esok jangan datang lagi".

Or, I just distribute a blow-up to everyone since they are so desperate. Hehehe, ignore the rambling, just enjoy the view in the pictures... even though it is not that fantabulous!

Kebaya again....

2007-10-25T08:12:00.000+08:00

Actually, I already posted these two pieces, however... I just took the picture in a different angle..... I wore this one before...

This one happens to be one of the popular design. It cost RM 350.00 to make....

And.... I want to indroduce you my model.....

Twinkle! The supermodel... hehehehe..

Mummy, I don't think this is my size.....

And... this is her supermodel shot moment... hahahaha...

A day at Mukah beach...

2007-10-24T13:25:00.000+08:00

We went to beach last few dys. I didn't have camera with me, so I end up using my phone to take her picture. Well, not too bad the quality though.

She's happy to be at the beach. I should bring her more often... Fresh air is good, including for me...

Just a piece of mind....

2007-10-23T08:35:00.000+08:00

If you are talking in a very conservative way, it is true I am not a perfect model of society. It is even more challenging if you are living in a small community where if you sneeze, the other side of the town can hear you. However, for the past 2 years, I managed to stay ‘OK’. The decision that I made two years ago was thankfully right. I am blessed to have a family who really love and support me. Not to mention countless blessing that I have been receiving for the past 2 years too. The simplest sense of happiness that I experience everyday without fail is a cute smile and the words ‘Mummy!’ from Twinkle whenever I come back from work. To listen to her foot step running after me for my hand bag… It is a blessing to have Twinkle in my life, even though I know it is going to be a little bit harder to raise herself alone. But hey… even a child with dad and mum still have problem… Then again, it is only in my humble opinion.

Whenever I remember the past, initially I will be full with vengeance and anger. But, thinking again, if I am full with hatred, how am I going to be a good parent? Besides, all this negative energy inside me is letting him winning… meaning, he is succeeding in ruining my life. Instead of harvesting this negative aura inside of me, I learnt to forgive him… and get on concentrating to making life more meaningful each day. Besides, being hateful will make a person look old!! Definitely I won’t let it robe my… ehem youthful look…. (B, if you reading this, do not throw up… hehehehe). **sigh** After all these happened to my life, I am grateful that I still have a friend who still care for me, regardless of my past. I can’t thank you enough for what you have done to me and Twinkle. Every time I think of it, I always have tears in my eyes and still believe that there are still good man exist in this world. Not all men are heartless and cruel.

Strange enough, I believe that what goes around comes around. Only time will tell….

Ohhhh my Twinkle....

2007-10-22T12:21:00.000+08:00

This is Twinkle... and a piece of bread!!!

She is running around with a piece of bread... She looks so cute and adorable here... Having hard time to get the picture since she is running around the house...

Finally, she stop running! Oh ya.. that's her granpa's hand, trying to calm her down since she is laughing so much!

Twinkle's sleeping buddy....

2007-10-19T08:39:00.000+08:00

Yup... thats my Twinkle... Somehow, toddler has a unique style of sleeping position. I wonder if I can 'cucuk' her bottom with needle? Hehehehehe...

How can she managed to get so comfortable?

Aha... her sleeping buddy since she's 1 month old.

I need to wash Patrick...

Things that I carry everyday to work...

2007-10-18T14:56:00.000+08:00

Suddenly I am just tired doing work that I decided rumaging my bag.

My wallet, goodness.. I need to clean it... Damn sandy area (Oh yeah.. I am working nearby beach area... which I am reluctant to be at since it is hot and humid!!!)

My everyday lipstick... Ahhh... gorgeous colour!

Another favourite lipstick by Loreal...

For my blemish... This thing is good!!! Guarantee ur jerawat hilang in few days!!

White musk perfume by Body Shop, trust me, after coming from site's visit (which I have to do everyday...), you need this so that you won't smells like old safety boots!

Me and Twinkle underneath blanket!!!

2007-10-17T08:48:00.000+08:00

It has been a while I haven't update my blog. Well, I think this blog is mainly a photo album of Twinkle. These photos are actually me and her underneath blanket and I took the opportunity to take pictures of her. In this picture, she is trying to grab my camera!

I love this look! A cute smirk on her face aye'?

Hahahahha, this is one my favourite too. Well, just ignore my hairy legs... hehehehehe.

Flowers.. around my house...

2007-10-01T12:31:00.000+08:00

I think this one.... hmm.. it looks good!

This is.. cherry? It's edible... Me and Twinkle loves it!!

They call this one bleeding heart..

Err.. I dunno this one...

I don't know this one either

This one, can bring luck to you...

Golden shower...

Bougenvilla....

Orchid...

Orchid too... they are so pretty!!!

Same as the above.....

Kebaya Nyonya

2007-09-28T12:47:00.000+08:00

My mum is a tailor. Well, she is more on making kebaya nyonya. Just last week, she finished making these two pieces. I mean, it takes week... She told me , both will cost RM290. Well, pretty cheap huh? Kampung price wat?

Tulips....

Don't ask me... I don't know this one.

Anyway, she still have a lot in her closet. If I have time, I will take pictures of them, and try to publish in the internet. How about, every week, two pieces?

Twinkle and my mobile phone!

2007-09-28T10:11:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone!!

What is this smell?

Smile!

Twinkle in action!

Twinkle's 2nd Birthday Party

2007-09-26T13:37:00.000+08:00

Her birthday was on 13th September 2007, on Thursday. I decided to celebrate her birthday party on Sunday, 16th September 2007. On the birthday itself, I bought 2 cup cakes, and asked her to blow the candles.

Look at her. All the blowing candles practises she made before is a success.

This one, she needs my mum's help. Or else, a disaster!

MMmmmmm.... She is quite good eating by herself. ( Oh well, still a mess though...).

I bought this cheese birthday cake for her. Taste nice!

Ahhhh... my girl is 2 and luckily I'm not away that day, travelling. Looking foward for next year birthday!

Twinkle and her bruise....

2007-04-03T20:25:00.000+08:00

My Twinkle fell off from steps. You can see bruise on her forehead. Well, luckily she fell not from so high steps. But... it was a horrible feeling when you see your baby flips and landed on the ground.

It was my fault. Hmmm... I just left her for fewwwwwwwwwwww seconds on the step, and she tried to reach her toes.. and she flipped!!! Luckily she's OK.

Oh dear... no more those kind of accidents.

The latest addition in my family.

2007-01-28T16:31:00.000+08:00

This is the latest addition in our family. My nephew, Alip Mizan, born on the 10th January 2007. He is now, 18 days. Isn't he adorable?

That's my mum and my daughter, Twinkle as she fondly known. Look at how my mum cradling Alip. Hahahahaha... Scared that Twinkle might bash Alip.

Ok, it has been a longggggggggggggggggggggggggggg time for me to update my blog. A lot of thing happened for the past few months.

I just came back from Beijing yesterday. Well, I attended this meeting from 24th to 26th Jan, and left on 27th. Hmmmm... I didn't do sight seeing since I had no time at all. It is not like I'm on holiday. Well, there will be another trip to Bejing layer.

I am heading to Mukah tomorrow, 29th January. In the morning, I have to go to SPC. Then, in the afternoon, I'll be heading for Sibu. Somebody will be picking me up from Sibu's airport.

I wish I can put some pictures of my recent trip to Beijing... but... hmmm.. I am camera shy. Maybe some other time.

My Baby!!

2006-12-18T09:05:00.000+08:00

It has been a while for me to write in my blog. i don't have computer at home and to use office's computer... I don't think so. Well, I will get one soon.

It's been almost six month I've been working. I love it, knowing that I have career in life. Besides, I can afford to buy things for my Twinkle. Ahh.... isn't she cute. She is 15 months now. She knows how to walk... a little bit. The most is like 10 steps. I hope by the end of this year, she can walk properly.

This year, we don't have open house. This is because my mum and Twinkle will be in Kuching. My sister is having a baby boy soon. Yahoo...

More on baby....

2006-09-23T17:38:00.000+08:00

Twinkle's 1st birthday

2006-09-23T15:17:00.000+08:00

Twinkle's first birthday was on the 13th September 2006. So, I was away and missed her birthday because of work. Well, I am a little bit upset because that's her first birthday and I miss it! Hmm... when I was at the office, I was near to tears. Oh well, there is always next year! It will be grandeur... ever!

On that day, she also receiving her 1-year shot from doctor. She was a little bit unwell but still have sufficient energy to be naughty! I heard she had a wonderful time since lots of other's kid present on tht day.

I miss her so much!! I only be back to Mukah after Hari raya. But, my mum and Twinkle will be coming to Kuching to celebrate Hari Raya. YahoooO!!!

What It Feels Like... To Chop a Man's Head Off

2006-08-26T15:41:00.000+08:00

By Fernand Meyssonnier, 75, former executioner

As told to Sarah Richards
August 2006, Volume 146, Issue 2

Meyssonnier worked on a guillotine team led by his father in French Algeria. From 1947 to 1961, he participated in two hundred executions.

Some people told me it took courage to guillotine people. But it’s not courage; it’s the ability to remain composed. You need absolute confidence.

When the condemned were brought out to the prison courtyard, they’d see the guillotine right away. Some were brave, but others collapsed or pissed themselves. I’d have to reach my whole body into the guillotine to pull the guy’s head forward. Had my father accidentally activated the blade, it would have cut me in half. Once I’d positioned the head on the bascule, my father would lower the demilunette. That’s the wooden bar that holds the head in place. Then I’d pull as hard as I could with my hands hooked behind the guy’s ears and say, “Vasy mon père!” There wasn’t even enough time to say it twice. If things went on too long, they had time to react, to turn their head and bite me. Or the guy could retract his head. You had to be careful because the blade came so close to your fingers. Some of the prisoners would cry, “Allah akbar!” until the blade cut off their breath. The first time, I remember thinking, It’s so fast! Then it became routine.

When the head comes off, there are two arteries in the body that spray blood ten feet. It’s like pitching two glasses of water. I think the more the guy was scared, the farther the blood projected. But the head itself doesn’t bleed much. The eyes move around some, but that’s about it. The trembling lasts only a few seconds.

I put my hand on a decapitated guy’s chest once. It was beating like the spark plugs in a car. You pull a plug, the car starts to run poorly: clack, clack, clack. It beats in tremors, and in the space of maybe ten, twenty seconds, that was it. The heart was no longer beating.
One time, we had a guy who fought us, and we were trying to tie him up, but he was incredibly strong. The guards punched him, and his head was all mashed up. When it was time to grab his head, my hands kept slipping because of the blood. We managed to drop the blade, but by the time I was holding his head in my hands, there was blood all over my face. I could feel the heat from it. Three or four guards fainted when they saw me there, this head in my hands, my face covered in blood.

Something to think about...

2006-08-24T21:37:00.000+08:00

A simple and humble prayer filled with trust. It reminds us of the repose of a little child in his mother's arms. Is not this attitude which Lord praises?

O Lord, my heart is not proud
nor do I expect too much.
I am not engrossed in ambitious matters,
nor in things too great for me.

I have quieted and stilled my soul
like a weaned child on its mother's lap;
like a contented child is my soul.
Hope in the lord, now and forever.

Twinkle's first attempt to eat her first cookie...

2006-08-19T14:47:00.000+08:00

Can you see the changes of her face? She looks like a cat fallen into a bowl of a thick cream. Can you see her dimple? Hmm.... so sweet!

Baby taking a bath at our verandah!

2006-08-19T07:32:00.000+08:00

I purposely put her in a big basin to have a quick plunge in water. It was a very hot day, well because of haze. She looked happy though.

Hehehehe, she is making a splash!

Well, for sure she was very happy after that.

It's hot Sunday and Twinkle is 11 months today!

2006-08-13T13:53:00.000+08:00

No electricity here since 10 am till now. Well, it's almost 2pm and it is blardy hot! Luckily it is windy and Twinkle manage to sleep.

She had constipation problem yesterday. But today she is OK. It was horrible to see her crying and there was trace of blood in her poo.