Happy Twinkle and new car maybe?

I love this picture. She seems so happy. Anyway, I am going back to Mukah this coming Sunday. Yahoo... I am going to see my Twinkle!
Oh ya, yesterday we went to car dealer. Hmm... I am going to get a new car since my Kembara Gold will be sold. I have been driving that car for two years. Better change la. I am excited to get this new white MyVi. Before, I want to get Kelisa since it is cute and petrol wise, very cheap! Anyway, MyVi has more space compared to Kelisa. Hehehehe, me n Twinkle can cruise around. Byron, come to Mukah... we can go to the beach with Twinkle.

Sejingkat...

Ok, I went to see Mr. James after almost a month having an interview with him.

I went to Sejingkat Power Station and it took 20 minutes from my sister's house. When I went there, the power plant was really huge.

Mr James told me that Sejingkat Power Plant will be similar to Mukah Power Generation only bigger. I was like... Oh, ok.

Hmm... he actually asked me whether if I'm going to be the control and auto engineer, will I be ready to be sent to Sejingkat aka away from Mukah for 3 to 6 months? I told him that I have no problem because I have place to stay and car to drive. He seems happy to hear that.

I asked him what are the chances and the percentage of me getting the job. He was like telling me that everything is positive. The result will only be known middle August. I was like... oh dear...

So, now all I can do is wait. I know I was given an assurance that I will get the job because I am a local and I have the right education background. The first interview, Mr James had worries over me because I am a woman. Duh! I know... It will be a difficult environment for me. When I was at Sejingkat Power Station, some naughty technicians whistling at me. Hmmm, typical Malaysian guy reaction to see girls. I think they are sexually deprived because not much girls around. Maybe I should distribute blow up to them. Hahahahahahaha!

Even at Sejingkat, all girls work at the admin. I can see that because on the way to Mr James' office I can see girls only work at admin and reception. I asked this sweet bubbly receptionist whether any girl’s engineer. She said no. Hmm… if I’m to train at Sejingkat, I’ll be the first. Oh help me…

August… I will wait for a good news… Keep my finger crossed. I do this for Twinkle.

Byron….. Mr. James reminded me of you.

Today...

What a day. Yesterday, I had problem with my laptop. It is because of my stupidity. I downloaded this free song and later on, I had to deal with all nasty XXX rated free site. It really slow down the internet connection because of the silly pop ups. I sent my lap top to the shop to do re-format. Hmmm, I am lucky because Byron helped me up. He gave me advice to do this and that. Luckily, it only cost me RM 45.

Today I had a call from Mukah Power Generation regarding with my interview. I think I am going to get the job. The manager, Mr. James called me and he told me he wants to meet me tomorrow at his office. I guess he wants to explain more on the job. I feel confident I will get the job because the other two guys who attended the interview did not get any phone call from Mr. James. Oh well, I will only confirmed it tomorrow. Byron, I need this job!

Oh ya, my friend is going to work with a new company tomorrow. Dear friend, if you are reading this, I wish you all the best. Don't forget to bring along your mug and coffee. Hopefully, tomorrow is a good news for me too.

A moment...

Holy Spirit, you who make me see everything and show me the way to reach my ideal. You give me the divine gift to forgive and forget the wrong that is done to me and who in all the instances of my life with me, I in this short dialogue, want to thank you for everything and confirm once more that I never want to be separated from you no matter how great the materials desire may, I want to be with you and my loved ones in your perpetual glory.

Amen.

Oh beautiful Love....

My friend once told me, she is beautiful because her face is always smiling... Plus, her mouth is always kissable. So, for the feast of his eyes.... just for you dear friend.

Damn... look at her abs!!! I want that!

Her boobies! Hmm... can I have that implants?

With this smiles, you can go any where. Pretty lips!!

Perfect smile...

Ok, everybody does not have perfect teeth. How I wish I had taken care of my teeth. Now, it is one of the biggest mistakes I made in life for not taking a good care of my teeth.

Anyway, I was given a chance to fix it. I went to the dentist today and given three options:


1. Braces
2. Caps
3. Bridging

I told the dentist that I want instant result. Well, she told me to do bridging because it will last long. It will cost me RM 2500 for 4 teeth.

Anyway, she advised me to do braces since it will last longer and the alignment will be prettier compared to bridging. This is because bridging only fixing the upper teeth but not the lower teeth. Unlikely braces, it will fix both upper and lower. Even though it will cost me from RM 3000 to RM 4000, it is considered cheaper because per teeth will be roughly RM 85 but for bridging it will be RM 625 per teeth. This is because it will fix 4 teeth! Besides, braces will fix problem forever but not bridging. It will only last 10 to 20 years.

Tomorrow I will see orthodontist and see how much it will cost.

It occurred in my head, how do I look like wearing braces? My friend wore it before for 1 year, but he still looked yummy and handsome. Me? Hmm, I don’t know. But seriously, if somebody making fun of me, I just told them… it is a RM 5000 metal in my mouth. Not everyone can put that in their mouth. Hehehehehe.

All the beautiful faces...

When I was pregnant, I watched a lot of korean soaps such as Jewel in the Palace and Full House. It was shown on 18TV in 2005. This Korean actress, Lee Young-Ae is from Jewel in the Palace. She is hot!

While these two are from Full House. I don't want to elaborate on the series, but I really enjoyed watching all the hot Korean actor and actress.

I wonder if my Twinkle had any of their resemblance because it is said that the appearance of your child in the womb can be influenced just by looking at others' faces. Hmm... hard to tell. So, Byron, what do you think?

Angelina Jolie... I just love her... She is just perfect!

Getting married...

I told my friend Siti Nurhaliza is getting married to Datuk Khalid. My friend knows her because I always downloading her song from his computer. Besides that I always play her song even though he don't understand Malay. Hahahahaha... the only word he knew is "cinta".

I have no comment but to hope a happy life for both of them. The difference between them is 20 years, she is 26 and him 46. Ahhh... age is only a number.

Me again...

I thought I want to paste the thing that I typed earlier. But, I changed my mind.

Well, I had this conversation with my friend. I feel awkward and hopeless. I worry too much. Maybe I should shut up. I can always talk to Twinkle. She may not understand but at least she will listen to me. I feel guilty because all the nonsense I told him. He must be tired of me talking crap.

Can I sleep well tonight? I don't know yet. My eyes hurts because of all the tears. I don't want to feel frustrated but sometimes I can't avoid it.

I just need to be home with my child. It has been a week already...

This picture is when Twinkle 5 months old. This picture makes me happy.

Oscar winning funny faces

Hehehe.. she is crying because she wanted to grab my camera. I purposely put on her cap. Hahaha.. more commercial value.

HAhahahaha... I love this picture. This is Twinkle while she is on her potty pot.

This is baby when she is showing off her charms. Ahh... how delightful...

Family feud and my dilemma…

It is a very complicated position if you are in between in this sticky situation. I am saying this because you have to hear both sides throwing lies, deceptions and ugly gossips about each other. Here I am just listening to them babbling and trying not to be smart out of anger to talk back. Trust me, they are not worthy to listen to, it is only a courtesy and out of politeness just because they are your relative. How I wish I am in Melbourne but not in Malaysia… sigh…

I really hate it when that somebody talking behind my back telling how selfish and irresponsible I am. To make thing worst, she starts spreading lies that I am not paying my loan and I am ruining my auntie’s marriage. Why? This is because my auntie is my guarantor. It seems that my auntie and her husband fighting and will getting the divorce because of me. This particular person has been telling my sister, but not me.

The funny thing is, my auntie is cool about it. I already explain to her nothing to worry about it. Unlikely this idiot, she just want to a cheap champion. Come on, she is nothing and only knows how to talk crap.

When my sister told me about this incident, I was bloody furious. I wanted to tell her off. How could she been doing that to me? My sister asked me to be patience. I really want to shout into her face but when I seen her, I just controlled myself and luckily it worked. Why is it so easy for her to pretend she didn’t do anything wrong? It is hard to pretend that you are OK, but you are not. She hasn’t seen the other side of me. For now, I just try to have compassion to her.

One day, I will tell her off. Not now but when the time comes. I don’t care if she is older or my own blood. What right does she have to tell lies and gossips everywhere? What she has done is already too much but I just need to learn to be patience. I am just scared that I might burst and scream at hr. Huh… that will be fun.

I remember when I was pregnant; I really despised to see her. The reason is simply she will asked me to do the thing that I don’t want to do.

But now, my baby is 10 months old. She is beautiful and I am so happy because I decided to have her. I don’t care if I lost my job because I want to have my baby. I can always find a new job but not Twinkle. Besides, being a Catholic, it is a mortal sin to have abortion. You cannot receive Holy Communion. The worst thing is you will loose Holy Spirit. You are not under His grace and mercy. Even worst, if you die sudden death without proper confession, you will go straight to hell for eternity. I don’t want to go there.

Knowing what she had done in the past, how can she receive Holy Communion in the church? Ok, you can attend everyday mass and recite rosary everyday, but what is the point if you don’t change the way you live? You still curse, spreading the filthiest gossip and no forgiveness in her heart? Cursed is her soul to receive Holy Communion if she still live a life like that. Even worst if you commit mortal sins and still receive Holy Communion. It is like booking our own damnation.

I have a lot to talk about religion, but maybe some other time.

My Twinkle...

I'm back in Kuching with my sister. I feel like crying coz I miss her. Oh well, I'll get over it. She'll be 10 months this 13th July. That's her favourite toy at the moment. I bought it for her... Fun to see her kicking. Hahahaha

Blue and black kebayas...

Hi again, these two kebayas are among of my favourites. I try to wear them, but unfortunately they are not my size obviously. Those are my mum's. It is loose here and there.

Black kebaya is very sexy... The blue one is sweet... Ahh.... I want peacock's design...

Sleeping Twinkle...

It is very hot for the past few days! Few rains here and there but it does not do the justice of being cooling enough… My Twinkle develops rashes around her fingers because of the intense heat. She and my mum been sleeping at the living room because of air condition is outside. Hmm, I hope I can install one in our room maybe after earning something.

We just switched it on for a while then when it is cool enough, just turned on the fan. Luckily when it is approaching dawn, it is very cold. You can see from the picture, I put on her socks. Isn’t she adorable when she is sleeping? The other picture is when she is in the swing cot. Notice her red companion? It called “Patrick”. She needs Patrick every time she goes to bed. I bought it when she only 1 month old. Bear in mind, I also give Patrick a necessary bath when it needed to. I don’t want it to be smelly!

I might be going back to Kuching because no maid yet. I don’t mind because I need to help up my sister, since she is 3 months pregnant. Of course I will be sad because I have to leave my baby behind. Oh well, it is only for a while.

Today for lunch, my mum steamed a very large fish. I don't know what it called. My uncle caught four of it and he gave one to us. It cost RM8 per kilo and I think the fish that he gave us was might be 7 kilos. My mum steamed half of it. Damn... it was veryyyyyyyyyy tasty and I finished all of it!!! Well 90% of it. My diet gone... I'm still size 28. Waaaa I used to be 26! OK, tomorrow, I will eat less... Hmm the price of motherhood. After giving birth, it is hard to be "before size".

Tiger Orchid

Actually, I have a very interesting orchid to show. It is called Tiger Orchid and it is wild. This is the first time the plants flowered after 4 years my mum planted it. It is only flowers once a year the same time. So, the next flower will be June 2007.

Somebody told me it can cost RM 10,000. I told my mum, if someone wants to buy it for RM10,000, just sell it. She has four of it, so no harm if she wants to sell it. Anyone out there interested?

I am back to Mukah!

I am back in Mukah. It was hard yesterday. Hmm… my flight from Sibu to Mukah cancelled!! So, no choice but me and my sister have to travel by bus for two hours. We arrived yesterday around 1.30 pm.

When I reached home, my Twinkle was at the balcony. When I looked at her, she looks different!! I left her for a month, definitely she changes A LOT!!!

I approached her, and she a little bit perplexed looking at me. Oh course, she still smiling A LOT when she was looking t me! Her front teeth!!! Two big fat teeth!! There’s a gap in between. In my head, I already planned a set of braces for her to wear in the future.

When I reached for her, she also reached out her hands for me. Ah… all my heartache gone when I hugged her. She looked at me as though she tried to ask me, “Mummy, where have U been?” Hahahahaha she almost 10 months and I tried to breastfeed her. She bit me!!!! After she bit me, she made funny face and laughed at the same time! I miss breastfeeding her, but she does not want it anymore. What to do...